dazed and confused

• i woke up at 2am today.. haven't had a chance to sleep again since then..
• the cabinets that we need are already being assembled
• he greeted me when he got home.

i can't bring myself to look at him without anger, without doubt, without a feeling of hopelessness and loathing and regret.. these feelings hit me all at the same time...

yes.. it is very confusing...
confusing seems to be the word of the day..
i can say that the perfect word to describe me today would be CONFUSED.